Wednesday, 6 February 2013

the ache

The feeling is like your heart is being shredded into pieces
it's like your heart is being torn into halves
you cant breathe
your chest hets really tight
and your eyes stings
it feels red
it feels teary
but you're not gonna let if fall
cause it's not the right thing to do
cause people say it's wrong
cause people say your tears are too valuable to be wasted for something so 'invaluable'
so you just hold it inside you
and wish that the feeling disappears into thin air
you hope that one morning
when you wake up...maybe..just maybe the feeling will go along with the night
You know what's right and what's wrong
but you know that to do it is so very hard
thought that it didn't really exist in the real world
thought that the songs were imaginary
but you fall
you fall really deep and the walls are so tall and so slippery
you try to climb your way up
but the higher you climb the harder it is when you accidentally fell
so in the end, people look into the hole and wave to you
they try to pull you up but gravity keeps pulling you down
and maybe you're not making the effort to get out of the mess
every time words of love and care are exchanged
your heart blooms
and when reality slaps you hard,
it was never that awful
you are just second or third or maybe last
compared to her you are nothing
to the world you do not exist
you do not live
you do not matter
you are you
and he is he
and she is she
and them....is them
and the box is not for you to reach
the box is not for you to tear
so when the feelings call out to you and you answer
the weird thing is..it doesn't echo...
so you just hurt by yourself
your heart still ache
it feels..like....you cannot breathe no matter how deep you inhale...
your eyes still sting...and still no tear fell...
so you just sit by yourself...keep blinking your eyes in the dark
wondering..thinking...and running
from truth
from yourself
so suffer is the final answer?

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